The most painless Flo I've had in years.

My earliest subscribers know there was a point all I spoke about was my uterine issues. It threw me inside the deepest trenches of pain. Everything felt awful from the beginning of it till the end because I had difficulty with Flo in many medical terms that made me profess that, “yes uterus, you have stressed my life since I became aware of you.”

And it was no lie. It indeed stressed me and continued to stress me every month. In June I overdosed on pain killers and fainted.

It was so bad.

I overdosed on painkillers and told one talking stage about it then and his response just told me it was time to pack up my bags with this one.

Asides from that, I had considered packing my bags since. The way he chewed food and had excess of it drop on his plate and come out from the two sides of his mouth disturbed me. I didn't wish to tell him my thoughts, that I thought he ate like a very hungry bricklayer. That would be rude.

When the light came in form of his lack of empathy and care for my pains or situation I took it and disappeared. Of course he would message days later making me regret why had I been polite?

Back to Ms. Flo. With the fasting I did in June and the change in my feeding routine I writhed in pain for 48 hours. Nothing was working and I just laid on the cold bed in Jos waiting to die.

The lady I shared rooms with was so worried. She was awake all through saying sorry every minute until morning when she told our hosts.

I survived.

The story is for July. With the pain I saw in June I started my preparations for July the moment I reached home. I took my pcos drugs judiciously. Visited a new doctor who gave me these tiny looking tablets I’ve not seen before. I asked her about them she only smiled and said try this one.

If nothing improves come back to me. I came back home to check the medicines out and actually they were related to my issue. I took per her prescription and I slept so well.

This is the healthiest Flo I have had in years. Not even the slightest pains dear lord. It feels calm. I am more envious of the women who feel like this every month without pain.

I am glad I prepared ahead.

What is the moral of this story?

Know yourself. Deeply know yourself. Keep finding what works for you. Find what is compatible with your biology. Not just bodily but mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. We all have what will come to us and feel like the perfect fit.

You can try and try all you want but if you do not deeply know yourself you will be managing life for the rest of your life. You will be managing a pain that can vanish just by taking the right medications for you.

You will never know what ease feels like because you are playing to the systems set up by other people.

Know yourself. It will take time too. Be willing to change doctors too. Be willing to try different paths no matter how little till you find what makes you breathe well and come alive.

Plus you may not even think you are getting the solution the day you will find it.

I just wanted to try different and got this doctor. She listened and answered my every question and I answered her every question. Once we finished there was understanding. And she gave me this with a hundred percent bet it will work. It did. It did! I am so grateful to not manage pains for July’s Flo.

Medicine cost a likkle but effective unlike the expensive but ineffective I kept taking judiciously and I felt more anxious, saw more hairs, battled more issues, and foggy dizziness.

Don’t stop till you’re heard by those who should hear you oh. If you do you may never know what ease looks like. Tell yourself, “it can certainly not end here. This is not all,” because yes it is not. An answer is probably closer than you think.

This message is for me to not forget also cause I do forget what is achievable sometimes. We add July to my best months because of this feat. ♡

Thank you for reading. 💕