Decisions, decisions or is it clarity?

Establishing this part of my life and seeing what comes from it.

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“Every time I find the meaning to life, they change it,” a book by Daniel Klein which was now the title of Oluwayemisi OJo’s latest episode in her newsletter “Sanity stop—how not to burn out.”

In this newsletter, she spoke of how she always wanted to be a writer and chased that dream with the support of her parents who didn't impose any dream on her. She chased that dream from 2010-2018. Studying English Language at Usman Danfodiyo University, winning some mentions here and there. She made so many creative writing submissions but never got far—at beast meager recognition and an acceptance.

She said writing comforted her and wrote about how her future as a writer was sealed until that ship sailed. She realized she would be dead broke if she didn't find another thing to do. She also had a tendency of sticking to things even when they stopped sticking. That resonated with me. From there she did her masters in development studies with a specialty in conflict and security. This dream came from seeing the IDP camps in Daudu, Benue state where soldiers told tales of death and the fight like Twitter stories on Valentine's Day. She finished and applied to every peacebuilding organization she could find but was never good enough. Five years out into this dream and now the ship has to sail again because it was going nowhere.

Now she's into e-learning, using her writing skills still but for education which she always loved. She's doing well and has done great work so far. I found her as an e-learning training consultant and training development person.

She has a long way to go but is still disillusioned with her dream. She's a beautiful writer I wonder why and how that didn't take flight but I believe she's where she needs to be somehow and everything will work out somehow for her as she lives her life.

Thoughts

Now, since I read her newsletter it got me thinking about my own life and my own dreams. I never really had anything definite. I just wanted to have comfort and money. I wanted to help lives through medicine. I am glad I didn't go that route tho.

Being a writer was just a hobby. I wanted to be a chef, I had envisioned myself chasing a degree now in some fine culinary school in Portugal, Italy, or Paris. I loved the hospitality sector but that I am not so sure now. I might still do it who knows?

I have a business I run but not as a business. I publish books for fun because I can.

I ghostwrite till date it remains my biggest source of income. I love the work I do, the meetings I have with clients and how I tell their stories. My clients find me on LinkedIn and Upwork. They love my work and I love to immortalize their experiences through fiction or non-fiction.

I write my books and in three months I get the income of books bought from Amazon.

My first book brought me my first laptop. A woman from the UK read it and was amazed I wrote it with my phone and published it. She sent me money to get a laptop and that started my remote work life journey.

I want to embody and own my business and treat it as a business now. I want to establish my own publishing services and company. I want to actively put out books and have clients on my list waiting for a free slot so I begin telling their own stories. I wish to be booked and paid from January to December doing the work I love now.

Winifred Liam a known name in the publishing industry. I want to tell stories of top thought leaders in various industries and have them pay me in thousands of dollars.

I gained clarity from this goal from two stories today: Oluwayemisi’s story tells me that I should lean where I am doing great work. In my case writing is thriving. I have my books in Germany, US, and the UK. This shows me that major world market is waiting for me. My clients come from Germany and the US so there's an alignment.

I learned from the second story: Ekwy’s story she said she's earning times three of the top tech boys and girls salary, she is a DevOps engineer but earns from being a customer success manager. She loves customer service a lot and has created a brand around doing what she loves. She says do what you love and everything would come.

I want to do what I love and what I love is writing. One can make 70k from writing a single web copy, now imagine drawing in 10 web copy clients a month.

I have thought hard and I want to say that the business I've been running as though it's not a business will become a business in its true sense now and not something I do as a side. I want to transition well into this and stop the rat race game and create from my heart without restrictions.

So with the birthday around the corner I am glad I gained this clarity. I can actively push and market myself once I finish the meetings with myself and have more clarity on how I desire other aspects of this to run.

I am praying for myself so hard this season and I am undergoing a change of mind and pattern. Picking the things that have worked so far and pivoting towards that.

As I manifest, I work, I plan and I pray with every structure I lay for this.

My not-so-active business shall become as active as I can push it to be.

As the new me emerges I pray that from the self I shall birth through faith and prayers multiple unexpected best things emerge as well.

May the new week be blessed. The weekend was a restful and thoughtful one for me, I hope yours was good as well. Wishing you a great week ahead.

As Hauwa said in her newsletter if you have a simple life where your problems have to do with not having enough money it is a blessing. Just keep doing you won't know where the next positive change will spur from.

I hope you stay true to you and find pockets of inspiration everywhere.

With hope,

Winifred.